see you smile...

there are so many things i wanna tell you, yet i don't know if i should. you're the first person who made me feel this way; jump like a fool, smile as bright as the sun. and i wish i could be the same for you. but i can see the pain and sorrow in your eyes, yet i don't know what is it. or maybe i do know what is it, but i just don't wanna say it out cause it might hurt you more. i wish nothing but the best for you, even if it means leaving you for good. at times i wish that i would've known you earlier, for we could be happily together till forever. i guess fate doesn't want us to be together, or it could be a huge challenge for us. well, saying us is undermining what you've got to go through. i can't tell you what you should do, i don't want to force you to be with me if you wouldn't want to. i just want you to be true to yourself, ask yourself, what is the best thing for you? like i said, even if it means leaving you for good, then i would do so. we're no longer kids, we cannot avoid this. eventually, this will catch up to us and hurt us, or probably you even more. and i don't want to see you getting hurt. i want to see the bright and cheery you; the girl who everyone likes to talk to, the girl who everyone feels cheerful to be with, the girl who brightens people's lives. that is why i would really appreciate if you do open up to me, cause i don't want you to suffer it by yourself. let me help you make the decision, even if it will be the last thing that i will do. don't think that you will trouble me, cause i wanna be a part of you even if it's just for a little while. don't think about how i would feel, i've been through a lot and i know how to bounce back up. just be free again. cause the world wants you to see your smile, real smile again. whatever that will happen, it'll be decided by fate. live life to your fullest, cause you deserve it.