ignored. invisible. inexistence.

is it worth going the extra mile for a friend? would it matter to them if you do that?

what's the point of doing it when in the end, you'll be treated like others?

what's the point of doing it when you loss a lot for their happiness?

what's the point of doing it when they came for you just when they needed you and left when they don't?

is that the meaning of the word 'friend'?

sick and tired of the same thing that's been repeating over and over again.

isn't friend supposed to be there and support each other?

isn't friend supposed to think of each other and help them when they needed?

so what happens when it is just you who do that but not others? is it still friend?


been looking around, heart filled with loneliness.

thought that it would be different when meeting new people.

but it's the same old story again.

people come when they need you, go when they don't.

why bother being there for them?

it is true, being there for them when they needed someone the most

is a good thing and they would value the true meaning of friend.

but does such thing still exist?


why does this keeps happening?

am i invisible? am i not noticeable? or am i just a friend to be there to wipe your tears

so that you can turn around and walked away happily?

this feeling sucks.

it's like people not acknowledging your existence.

it's like you're just being a piece of trash taking up spaces in this world.

it hurts. it deeply and truly hurts.

rejection, rejection and rejection.

loneliness, loneliness and loneliness.

there's no one particular person who made me feel this way.

it's how i felt generally. i could be wrong.

and i hope i am.


whenever i watched a show, the character felt lonely and lost.

i knew how that felt, i knew the suffering that they went through.

the difference is that, they're acting, what they went through doesn't really affect them.

but what i've been through. it's real. and it hurts.

keeping the silence. zipping my mouth shut. let the pain eats the soul inside.

the cruel fate that one can go through. it's a tragedy.

the story might come to an end soon. the very last hope that's left is,

at the end, people would acknowledge the existence of this person.