end of the year

no more emo post. no more confessions. no more ranting on this blog. i hope.

new year's coming, and that means new resolutions.

i wanna make a resolution, to be a person.

not a better person, but just be a person.

it's hard when you keep thinking bout others but they don't seem to think about you.

why when you make promises, you keep it,

while others said this and that and yet they forgot it a moment later?

all the "it's ok, i'll be there" or "anything can come to me"

i guess probably it's just a crap.

probably me ranting here will hurt some of you.

but yet again, i'm supposed to not care bout how others feel.

probably i'll change, to a more heartless person.

i said before i am who people made me.

and i've seen the worst side of the world, probably that would make me one as well.

but then again, that's not what Gakkai taught me.

i should care and be compasionate for others.

but is it worth if you do and yet others don't care about you?

people always say make yourself happy, don't care bout others.

keeps me thinking, now in a transition stage.

taking up every challenge has been what i'm doing for my entire life.

at the end of every challenge there's supposed to be reward and something good that happens.

but every challenges i faced, it ended up worse.

my last rant for the year. next year hope that i'll be able to control myself.

hopefully can refrain myself from coming here and pouring everything out.

i don't wanna be a better person, i just wanna be a person.



Happy New Year.

and Have A Nice Day :)