december to not remember

am i doing the wrong thing? should i not ignore you?

but the pain in seeing that im not the one. i need time to recover for it.

now is the right time for us. cause we'll be apart.

i just need to mend this broken heart. you don't know how much i really love you.

but looking at how you treat others and the way you treat me.

why would you, in a way, avoid me?

although you're always there to concern, but somehow i just feel a distance between us.

i wanna ask you whether you're alright when you look sick.

get you a tissue when you sneeze.

share my shoulder for you to lie on.

but i was never given the chance.

you always look for others, neglecting how i felt at that time.

i don't know, maybe i just think too much.

but nevertheless, it's still a pain.

i had everything planned out for you, wanna surprise you.

but after seeing how you treat others, and seeing the look that you gave.

i guess i should be thankful for not going on with the plan.

now we're gonna be apart for some time.

i just hope the next time we meet, i won't feel the pain no more.

i hope that i would want to see you, and likewise you would want to see me too.

but my feeling for you won't be as how i feel now.

i wish, that would happen.

till then, i shall disappear from all of you, if i can.

if you call me, don't be surprise if i don't answer it.

if you text me, maybe i won't reply, it depends. no guarantee.

but i guess most likely you'll not hear from me, cause the next time you see me.

hopefully you'll see the best of me, not the worst side of me.

probably last post of the year, i dunno.

just wanna wish everyone to have a nice day.

don't have a pathetic life like i do, cause it's painful.

till then, take care.